Wednesday, March 9, 2016


This afternoon the kids noticed that the bulbs we planted in the fall are beginning to sprout. While this week is forecast to be warm, I'm not counting on spring starting just yet. Still a new season is around the corner and with that come the awareness of time passing and the ever-pressing need to figure out a plan or at least pin down some firm possibilities for the coming year.

We registered Sprout for kindergarten a few weeks ago. It's a bit hard to believe that our three-year-old will be in full-time school in the fall. I also checked off the box indicating that we are interested in before and after school care for the kids. Not knowing what my work schedule will be, in seems prudent to get them on the wait list now and cancel the spots should we not need them rather than scramble to find care later.

There hasn't been any progress on the job front. A few weeks ago I did a big search and came up with a few new schools to apply to, but I still haven't updated my resume and sent out cover letters. (Well, I did for one that someone had told me might be hiring, but aside from that I have not.) I know it's important and I will do it, but it is a daunting task. I've been mulling over non-school teaching options --educational programming, tutoring and the like. Again, I need to search out all the possibilities, though there are a few I should get on sooner rather than later. Then there's the idea of going back to school. Tomorrow I'm hoping to finally make an appointment at a government office to see if I qualify for any assistance in going back to school. There's a program here that will job train for in-demand fields. I'm just not certain I want to work in any of those fields. It really is a mind shift. Hopefully after talking to someone I'll have a better sense as to whether that's something to pursue. I'd love to go back and get my Masters of Education or continue my Psychology Degree, but while potentially interesting, I don't see those as being something very practical options. It's hard to know.

Fortunately I'm feeling less crippled by this task than I did a month ago. The anti-depressants seem to be helping. I had some side effects -stomach pain the first week or two and then extreme fatigue for another week or two following that. I still feel like I'm more tired that I typically would be, but I seem to be adjusting. I find I'm a lot more patient with the kids and I have a more reasonable perspective on minor things that I was formerly getting upset about.

Not that everything is roses. My sister and I still are not speaking and I do not see a reconciliation in the near future. In fact, I have no interest in future contact with her unless she makes some indication that she is apologetic about the way she's treated us in the past and will try to show us more respect going forward. Fortunately we haven't had contact for several months now. Unfortunately Easter is coming up and my mom wants to get the family together. Jen and I agreed that we do not wish to join in the celebration if my sister will also be there. My regret is that this decision means that our kids are likely to miss out. It also brings into question how future celebrations will be handled. Thanksgiving. Christmas. I don't think it's fair that we'd always be the ones to bow out, but I also don't seeing her being compromising enough to take turns. I don't think it's fair: to us, to our kids, to my mom, but I also don't see another option. I guess we will see what the coming seasons hold.


  1. Is this your identical sister we are talking about here? Families are hard! I don't get on very well with my sister either. We always end up fighting like we are children again if we spend more than a couple of days together.
    Good luck with the jobs, it is daunting, but you have to be happy with what you decide to do xxx

    1. Yes, my twin sister. We've had quite a volatile relationship for most of our lives, but I thought we'd turned a bit of a corner until last year when many of the issues we've always had resurfaced. I haven't and won't post about it in detail on the blog because I don't think it's appropriate to share in a public forum. I'm disappointed and exhausted by it all, but feel confident that we've done the right thing by cutting ties until she is able to apologize for her behaviour and ready to try to make reparations. We may be waiting a long time.

      Thanks for the well wishes on the job front.

  2. I know it is Junior Kindergarten but wow just reading KINDERGARTEN is surreal. She will do amazing, of course.

    The job hunt. So so so so frustrating. It is likely a couple of years away for me and I am already obsessing about how daunting it can/will be. Not that my opinion matters, but I think you would make a fabulous psychologist. Does canada have school guidance counselors like the US? You would absolutely rock that!!!! Any job that you do go for, I am sure you will excel. You've got this!

    Knowing more about the sister situation, I can say that you and Jen are absolutely in the right. Not that you asked, but you know my opinion on her behaviors. I am not sure how compromising that your mom is (or willing to be) but with Popki we have luckily been able to work out a "different day" set up for holidays. He visited us at our home a couple of days before Thanksgiving and Christmas this year so that we could celebrate with him and him spend time with the children but without having to deal with sibling drama at the get together he had at his house the next day. Next year, unless things improve with my sister and no, much like you I do not see her ever accepting her part in all this, we will go to his house either before or after Christmas on a different day than the siblings are there. Truthfully, it is nice to have all Popki's attention instead of sharing it with a house full. I hope your mom would consider something like this for the best of the children. Good luck!!!!

  3. I can't believe she'll be in JK! That's wild to think about. In PA the birthday cut-off for going to Kindergarten is September, so kids born after September 1st wouldn't be in kindergarten 'til the next year. I think the Canadian system seems to make a bit more sense. I'll be so interested in hearing about how kindergarten goes for her - it feel like such a "big kid" thing!

    What is the program that offers training for in-demand fields? I am curious to learn more about it.