I've been meaning to post an update for a while, but as seems to be the case lately, I can't seem to gather my thoughts in the rare free moments I find to write...
But really, there are no free moments, are there? Blogging is something I need to start carving some time out for again. I really enjoy having this space, recording my thoughts and memories, but it seems the longer I stay away, the harder it is to get back to.
Last week ended up being quite busy. I was called in to teach a few days, which was great. This is the last week before a two week spring break, so it's doubtful anyone will be calling off. I have, however, taken a three day contract from a childcare company I used to work for quite a bit, so this weekend and early next week will be busy too. I went to a job fair last weekend and am hoping to get on a few more independent school's sub lists. It's hard to know how many places to reach out to --I want to be getting work most days, but I don't want to be turning work away (the kiss of death for subs). Hopefully I can get on with one or two more schools and find a good balance. A foot in the door a few new places wouldn't hurt either.
This week I also found a little bit of free time to finally go through some of our TTC paperwork. Please tell me we're not the only ones with SO much paper from the whole process. Cycle monitoring protocols and charts. Donor information. Shipping receipts. I threw out a lot, but then there was some stuff I wasn't sure about --The donor info we kept. Obviously. But I also kept the pro/con list we made when we were deciding on a donor. It seemed like something to hold on to. I also kept the cycle monitoring info. We'll probably get rid of it eventually, but for some reason it just didn't feel right to throw out those papers with all our hormone levels and lining measurements. Maybe because it was such a process and it seems like there should be a record of it? I don't know. Maybe it's just that I'm a bit of a pack rat and nostalgic to boot. Not a good combination when it comes to getting rid of stuff. At least the shipping receipts got trashed.
Going through all our paperwork reminded me that I STILL have to put together baby books for the kids. We have store-bought books that are sort of half filled in, but I also want to do baby photo books online for each of them. I've always sort of held it against my mother that she never did fill in our baby books beyond our birth stats and first visitors, but now that I'm on this side of things, I can totally understand how it happened. Never mind that she already had a four year old and that there were two of us and that we were premature.
Organizing seems to be an ongoing process around here. I've always prided myself on being hyper-organized and I hate that things have been piling up so much. It's so hard to find the time to get to thing these days though. A little bit at a time seems to be the way to go. Tomorrow I'll drop off a bag of clothes at Goodwill. Hopefully before the end of the week I'll find some time to get to my overflowing crochet basket and finish a new hat for Sprout. (Poor thing has outgrown all her winter hats, and winter doesn't seem to be going anywhere anytime soon.)
I don't think I've mentioned yet that I am going to have both kids home with me for a while in the not-too-distant future. Our child care provider has to go through some medical procedures and gave us the option of having him place somewhere else temporarily or keeping him home. We chose to keep him home. I'm happy, because I think The Bean will be excited about it and I am excited to have more time with him, plus we'll save some money by not having to pay for daycare; but I'm also terrified because how do I feed and give naps and play and take out two little children on my own?! I've started compiling a big list of things to do, but I know that keeping busy won't be the (only) issue. I'm sure we'll be fine, but I'm a worrier, so it's hard for me not to panic just a little bit.
Even though I'm tired (always) and overwhelmed (often) things are going well. Like everyone else I'm looking forward to spring, but I feel like change is coming, and that's a welcome thing right now.