Having been away, it's hard to know where to begin. We're a few months off from the half-year updates on each of the kids, but I feel like there have been so many changes with them since their birthdays. It's a constant wonder watching these two learn and grow. We have no more babies in our home. Bug will very specifically tell you that she is a little ("widdle") girl. And The Bean, while petite, is not little at all. His face is changing. The way he speaks in changing. His thought processes are changing.
They are both at pretty great stages right now. Sure, there is stubbornness and defiance, but moreover there are questions and cuddles and adventures to be had. Also, the sibling love. Oh, there is nothing better than to see these two small people grab each other in a big bear hug or listen to them have a conversation.
Right now things are in flux. Jen starts a new job in two weeks. She wasn't really looking, but the opportunity presented itself and there it was. We both think it will be a good change. But we're both somewhat change-adverse so there is an element of tension in the not knowing exactly what it will be like. I am also looking for work. There are so, so few opportunities. I would be very happy to find something, but I honestly think I would also be okay if I didn't get anything for the fall. (But only for the one year while they're not yet both in school.) I miss the kids. Having someone else watch them, even if that someone else is family and loves them to bits, is hard. Having the days with Bug and not having to worry about childcare would be nice. It'd also be nice to be able to pick up The Bean at 3:30pm and still have the afternoon with him. Let the kids have that time together. Go to parks or paint or bake cookies, instead of rushing home to make dinner and give baths and tuck into bed. ...but maybe I'm really just psyching myself up for not getting a job. Finding the silver lining of that situation. The silver lining does seem pretty sparkly though. In any case, what will be will be.
Beyond that I'm not really sure what else to say at the moment. Maybe another update soon... there are some thoughts bumping around in my brain that I would probably benefit from getting down in print. And, of course, some pretty cute photos to share.
You HAVE to hang in there at least until summer, because I am getting ready to launch the Summer Bucket List Blog Challenge and you KNOW you want to do it with me ;)
ReplyDeleteThey are just so so so so cute! How could you not share those precious faces? I understand though, the interwebs is a tough place to navigate sometimes. I find comfort in knowing that if anything, our children will read my blog some day and know above else how very much they were/are loved. I think the crappy things just come with life and by the time these bloggy kids are old enough to find and read it, they will be old enough to understand that it is not rainbows and butterflies all the time.
I know you miss work when not doing it, but I have been thinking about the same thing, how nice it will be to just have Boo time while LM is in kindergarten starting in the fall. I feel that she has missed out on the quality one on one time that LM reveled in for 3.5 years. That may just be the guilty mom in me talking though.
LOVE the adorable photos of the sibling love. And Bug? Perfect. Yes, use it!
I go through phases where I worry about who is reading my blog, too. I feel vulnerable putting stuff "out there". And of course, it's a concern that Evelyn won't like having her stories shared, even though I try to only share what I think will be non-embarrassing stories.
ReplyDeleteI hope Jen likes her new job & all goes well. Sounds like a good change!
When I started worrying about who was reading my blog, I decided to make it private and just invite people I trusted to read. Generally, my rule is that only people I don't know in real life get to read it, and only people who also have a blog of their own.
ReplyDeleteHope Jen enjoys the new job.